Or at least how I managed to
I can trace my first memories striving for perfection back when I was attending the second grade at primary school. I remember the class being tested in an extremely comprehensive hour-long test. I was feeling prepared and ready to tackle it as per usual. At the end of the day, the teacher asks me to come to her desk to check with me my results. “Well, you could have scored ‘Excellent’, but because you did this spelling error I’m gonna give you a ‘Bravo’. For the future, you should pay attention to every detail before handing in your test”.
To my 7-year-old self, this was so unfair and shameful. It equalled with disappointment. How stupid was I to let that minor mistake ruin my perfect score! So much studying and preparation for a spelling error to prevent me from “Excellent”? I had to change the way I studied. I had to study deeper and revise even more. I wouldn’t allow it to happen ever again. I would never disappoint my teacher, whom I admired so, ever again. I would never provide less than was expected. That’s when I first remember saying: “I wanna be perfect”. Which effectively meant give my absolute concentration and infallible performance.
Continue reading How to dump the toxic struggle for perfection
I’m not a big fan of New Year’s Resolutions. I end up flunking them by the second week of January. Tops. Yet, after some considerable lack of inspiration and energy, I decided it was time to shake things up. There is so much good artistic expression around and all I find myself doing is scrolling down my feed.
“Time to be a go-getter and revive that culture indulgence again.” And so, I started the year determined to put books, films and theatre back on my radar. “I must not allow my working schedule or my desperation to reach my pillow by eleven pm be a hindrance“, I thought.
Continue reading The 2018 Culture Challenge: Exciting My Lost Inspiration
Happiness is the holy grail of our culture. Being happy, feeling happy, becoming happier when there is a shitstorm around us, is the constant struggle of our entities while we spent our lives on this planet called Earth.
Modern Day HAPPINESS Definition⇒ If you want to feel happy, you have to accumulate one of the following traits in your life: be successful, be well-off, be handsome, be liked/loved, be healthy, be important. No pressure.
Continue reading The Problem with Online Self-Help and Life Coaching
You got to give it to drama queens. They experience their emotions to the fullest, regardless of the annoying stir they cause or the fact that they are so unbearable to most of us. They are passionate about their ‘suffering’. They translate stimuli around them in the most demonstrative way.
Now think of the extreme opposite. Not feeling anything. Not just momentarily, but as a persistent state of mind. Being transcended by events around you and not having the mood to deal or care about them. Continue reading A note on apathy
2016 was a year of mixed impressions for me. It either swirled me sky high or dropped me abruptly to the bottom. I am not disappointed, though. I am rather fulfilled. In 2016, I managed to make my crazy big dreams, rooted in my teenage years, come true. Living this experience made me feel the thrill of having some things being realized the way Ι have imagined them to be. However, I also managed to obtain a clear and pragmatic view of some other things that I had sugarcoated and thought uncomplicated. There is a certain heartbreak lingering in such cases, but it’s better to be wiser than deceive yourself. This year, I managed to step wayyyy out of my comfort zone and gradually make -right out there- a new one, I walked one step closer to the much-feared burden of adulthood, and I learned a lot about life, people, and ideas.
On that note, here’s what stuck with me this year: Continue reading 2016’s Favourites
My friends and I are immensely rooting for this Australian girl!
Melbourne based, Self-Taught, Singer-Songwriter, Beat-Boxing, Vocalist, Guitar Tapping, Loopologist.
This is the description that appears on her website and I have to admit that for only a 21-year-old girl she does it more than successfully.
Continue reading New Music Discovery: Tash Sultana
And yes. You finally reach that point in your life where you have finished with your studies. Good on you! Congratulations! etc.
As if the huge stress that this experience has caused you and the dark circles that made you look like a panda bear weren’t enough, you now enter a new stress-generating area. The JOB MARKET.
Continue reading Existential crisis and the life after uni